How Obsessed Am I With This?

How obsessed am I with this?

Oh!  I am BEYOND obsessing and have moved into being positively possessed with this publishing pursuit. 

I’m sure I’m driving Katherine crazy, but she never shows it — but then again, she rarely comes around the house, anymore.

I know I keep making minor changes to the “finished” book and keep adding new materials to our new book.  I know I have loaded down her email box with more and crazier ideas to get us discovered.   The agenda for our weekly meetings grows and grows with steps to implement this or that new strategy, while still juggling the strategies that came before.

She’s very calm and patient when I talk to her about it — never discouraging, although I have noticed her distancing herself from me, more and more…especially, when the crazed-glazed gaze comes over my eyes, my pitch starts to rise, my speech starts to speed up, and my words start tumbling over each other...  

Motivational masters tell us that all we need to do is visualize what we want in our lives, and it will magically appear for us.  If you need a screwdriver to fix a light socket, all you have to do is visualize a screwdriver, and it will magically appear on the sidewalk on which you’re walking.  There’s nothing to it.

I can’t and won’t dispute their claims or beliefs, but I’m what you call an optimistic realist.  Instead of sitting down, visualizing, and waiting for a screwdriver to appear, I get up and go to the toolbox.

Nonetheless, I am trying the technique, just in case it does work.  At the office, I keep picking passwords that focus on the positive thoughts of getting published — like mini-prayers throughout the day. The current password is associated with our Ellen DeGeneres plan. 

The IT guys will be upset with me if they find out I told you this, so I’ll make sure I change the password before I post this. 

On the other hand, it would be interesting to see if the IT guys barge into my office, reprimanding me about revealing my password on the Internet.  At least then, I would know that someone is actually reading these posts, which could mean that we’re one step closer to being discovered…

“The pessimist complains about the wind; 

The optimist expects it to change;
 The realist adjusts the sails.”

      William Arthur Ward