Let’s Focus, People!

I woke up, again, with the strongest desire to work on these writing projects, so I’m back at my computer, wanting to write about something… about anything!

This energy — this desire, this obsession, this need — controls my every waking moment.  It’s all I can think about.  It’s all I can focus on…

Don’t get me wrong…other things do get done.  I go through my days as usual.  I function at work; I get my errands done; I manage the house; I meet with family and friends; I continue to give of myself to the teens online; I go to choir practice, etc.

Everything else gets done; everyone else’s needs are met.

I meet all my other obligations; but, all the while, my mind is clicking off thoughts of what I need to do to push me over the next hurdle in my writing career.

I go through my days looking for new ideas for the blog, new subjects for better books, new methods of getting the message out, new contacts, and new ways of getting noticed by publishers…

I have a writing pad by my bed, just in case I think of something in my sleep.  I have a writing pad in my car, just in case I think of something during the drive to work or on my way to various errands.  I don't have a writing pad in the bathroom... well, not yet...

Yeah.  I’m becoming obsessed with this… but I believe that I’m managing my writing addiction quite well.  I don’t think anyone is getting slighted due to it.  It’s just that I’ve noticed how I’m constantly in search for something to do that’s relates to these writing projects…

The MOST interesting thing about this is that Katherine is dealing with the same type of energy, the same type of desire, and the same type of need to work on her personal projects.

Unfortunately, her personal projects are not these writing projects of mine.

We’re back to her self-interest is getting in the way of my self-interest; and my need to put our friendship ahead of my desire to get published.

While all I can focus on is the writing projects; all she can focus on is her personal and family issues.

I understand that.  She needs to focus on those things; and I need to give her the space and time to do it.  She needs to concentrate on redefining her inner core; and I need to give her my support, my understanding, and my friendship to accomplish that.  She doesn’t need additional things to juggle along the way.  She has enough on her plate as it is.

So, when we do manage to get some time together, we don’t talk much about these writing projects.  We talk about what’s going on in her life.

Instead of writing about friendship, we’re living it…

And that’s the whole point, isn’t it?

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