Coming from Two Different Directions

I’m tired of hearing how I can’t feel as much…. or understand as much… or experience the depth of my psyche and the darkest being of my inner soul — because I don’t use recreational drugs or experiment with extreme activities.

I’m tired of being told that those who “get high” on a daily basis — to reach their “new” normal — live a more enhanced and self-enlightened life than I do.

I’m tired of listening to how my choices in life have prevented me from exploring the total being of my “self” — and how my choices have condemned me to a life that is less than full and whole. 

These lectures end with the conclusion that my choices in life have prevented me from experiencing life with the same god-like clarity and goddess-like purity that these celestial beings are.

Yes, I must admit that my life-choices have put me on a different path than theirs.  I’m not saying that my path is better or worse than theirs… just different.  I’m not judging how they reach their self-actualization, and I would appreciate similar respect.

Yes, I know I must never rest in my quest for self-improvement and spiritual growth.  I know that I must push myself to greater and greater wisdom and effectiveness.  But I also know that I must keep myself balanced and steady — so my feet are grounded and not constantly “tripping” on the stairways to heaven.  That's just the way I have to do it — slow and steady.

 

Yes, I haven’t awaken and explored the ugliness that may be caged within me — a cage that can only be unlocked with the use of hallucinatory and mind-altering drugs.

Yes, I don’t live in an altered reality.  I’m busy dealing with reality.   I deal with the day-to-day mundane routine of life — going to work... getting things done… paying the bills… keeping projects moving… focusing on fulfilling my dreams — and I do this without the use of drugs to get through the day... well, maybe asprin.

Yes, I haven’t developed the same “heightened sense of self” as they have.  I admit that I don’t spend hours and hours digging into my psyche.  I spend that time expanding outward… pursing my mission in life… focusing more on others than on myself.

Plainly said, I am not as “into me” as others are “into themselves”  — nor do I see myself as above all others — a being to be placed on a pedestal and revered.  

No, I see myself on the same level as others…  We are not above or below the other.  We are just different.

This admission shouldn’t make some conclude that I am less — that I feel less, understand less, or experience less, or am “enlightened” less — than they are.

 

We’re simply coming at self-actualization and spirituality from different directions…

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