Who Am I Kidding?

While I’m waiting for a therapist to get back to me, I’ve decided to live in the little world that I’ve created for myself. 

No, not the overly-optimist world most people believe that I’m living in — the one where I’m so close to becoming published.  No, not that one, but the little circus world that I’m creating for the children’s book series.

Yeah, I’ve started on the third book in the series — before we’ve gotten adequate feedback from the first one, and before Katherine has had a chance to read the second book in the series. 

The good news is this third book is keeping my brain busy… busy enough to control my obsessions. 

• I’m not sitting at the computer, emailing Ellen DeGeneres again… just to say, “Hi, remember us?”  I did think about doing that this morning, but I didn’t follow through with it.   I think that’s progress…
• I’m not emailing the same therapists over and over again, asking if they got my initial request for feedback on the teen book, Ready or Not…  I did that only a couple of times, but then I stopped.  I think that’s progress…
• I’m not inundating Katherine’s email box with off-the-wall ideas to help us get noticed by publishers.  I’ve just been going ahead and doing the off-the-wall ideas and then apologize to Katherine, afterwards.  I think that’s progress…
• I’m not beating myself up because I’m only two months ahead of schedule on the blog entries, when I use to be three months ahead.  That’s progress… 
• I’m not fixated on checking how many people view this blog or the YouTube channel… as much.  I only check it three times a day now.  That’s progress, right?

So, yeah…  Working on this third children’s book is controlling my obsessive tendencies…

Heck!  Who am I kidding?!




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