It’s Just a Story: Virtual Love Affair – Part 2

As we progressed through this game, we reached higher and higher levels together.  Our fantasy world became real to us.  We shared ourselves, first, through the game and, then, through online chats and webcam meetings. 

We shared ourselves through texting, then sex-texting, then pictures, then videos.  Harmless flirtations became declarations of love and devotions.  We planned clandestine meetings, so no one could stop us… no one would know… no one could ruin it.

We hid the truth from ourselves as much as we hid the truth from our loved ones.

Those who knew about our affair questioned the logic of the relationship.  They wanted me to think about what I was getting myself into... but that’s what they didn’t understand.  Thinking and feeling can’t coexist at the same time.  When you’re thinking, you’re not feeling; and when you’re feeling, you’re not thinking.  We couldn’t question the logic behind what we were experiencing. 

No one else could understand that, nor could they understand the depths of our feelings… the depth of our connection… the depth of our trust and closeness. 

I was convinced that no one could feel as deeply as we could.  There was no couple as strong and devoted to each other as we were.

No… no one could understand, because no one has ever experienced what we had.

Our fantasy became reality, and our reality became fantasy.  Nothing or no one could break our bond. 

We explored our inner selves as much as we explored each other.  We learned so much from each other.  We grew as individuals as well as a couple.  I couldn’t imagine a life without you in it.  We were intertwined from the inside out…

For me, nothing existed but you. The outside world disappeared.  I neglected my family and friends.  My integrity was questioned.  My reputation suffered.  In fact, I lost my job over this affair, but I didn’t care.  I didn’t care about anything… but you. 

As long as we were together… as long as we had each other…nothing else mattered.

 

I was so sure that our love would last that I started to make plans for us.  I started to share my daily life with you — my routines, my frustrations, and my hopes and dreams.  I started to turn to you for support and comfort.  I started to depend on you to be there with me… through it all. 

Yes, this relationship was real for me. No one could convince me otherwise.  I put everything on the line for it.  I was sure that I would never experience a love like this again, so I surrendered my will to yours. 

I loved you with all my being and knew that I would always love you.  

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